Booked tickets to watch WALKING WITH DINOSAURS!!!

LIKE OMG.

"So we're just going to watch 96 mins of dinosaurs roaring at us?"

dotdotdot.

ignorant leh. it's AWARD WINNING OK.

AND I GOT MY YARIS BACK!! happy like a bird!! i miss my car so much!!

Just ran like 7km. and it was a good session, to clear my head, literally. had many thoughts and emotions running high for quite awhile, and i feel like my head is about to explode.

You know how people come and go in your life, and you meet different people in different phases? For someone who's pretty much an introvert (yes, yes i am), i'm really fine just enjoying free time with my small circle of love ones. I don't need to socialize, i don't need to feel happening and hang out in big groups (in fact i detest that). So out of like, maybe 20 people i meet at each phase of my life, probably only 1 follows me to my next phase. And these very small group of people means ALOT to me, to the point i can sometimes get too emotionally attached, whether romantically or platonically.

And i think, I should stop doing that. because sometimes in this process, i find myself getting affected unnecessarily. It's time i learn to let go, look forward, and stop letting the past haunt me. I should learn to forgive myself for things that i've done, and stop feeling bad for decisions wrongly made, words that were unintentionally used, or actions that i've regretted.

Because if not, i'll never be able to move on and be happy. Easier said than done though. But i promise myself that i will try, to focus on the future, on what i have presently, instead of lamenting on what i've lost. It's not just worth it, especially when the other party doesn't even bother trying. Friendships or relationships of this sort, is really not worth it.

They say it hurts the most because you care the most. Yes, it's true. But if you care the most, it shouldn't even be hurting in the first place. Somewhere along the line, the equation just got messed up and if it's not reversible or can't be salvaged, then i say just let it go.

Am i judgemental? Or maybe i do not understand the person? i do not know. When someone says that to me, then i tell them likewise. If you think i don't understand you, then i think you don't understand me either.  Whatever the situation, it shouldn't be so difficult to maintain a relationship or friendship that supposedly matters. Having said that, one shouldn't just sit back and expect things to work out by itself. It's just waiting to spiral into nothingness. Nothing comes easy in life if it's worth having it.

Time heals everything, but it's also erases memories. Out of sight, out of mind, and i believe this is how time becomes a healing process. When a couple breaks up and one says " Let's not meet anymore, i'll give you time to heal". It just means time is an intervention for two people to revolve back to where they both started: as strangers. No memories, nothing. Pretend that paths have never been crossed. Sad isn't it?

SO ANYWAY. enough of the pensive mood. 2 months to the end of 2010. Looking forward shall be my pre resolution for 2011! Ganbatte! :)