Lately i've been having disagreements with my dad. And it's times like these i wished my mom was still around for me to talk to, to reason with. Sometimes it can get pretty tough being the only female in the household, because my brothers and my dad don't seem to understand the kind of emotions that i have, and i end up wetting the pillows by my lonesome self in the late nights.

It's also times like these i question my religion, the existence of God, my faith and why shit happens. I mean, my mom was a good person. She gave and sacrificed so much for my family. She worked hard to make sure we were sheltered, attended good schools and lived comfortably. Like all mothers, she loved her children unconditionally. So why did she deserve to suffer in return, not given a chance to have a peace of mind by watching her children grow up, marry a good person and even be a grandmother?

This isn't even a FML kinda post. I'm always told, all things happen for a reason, and honestly i get sick of hearing that sometimes. It's like there's nothing better to say. If ever shit happens and someone says that to me, I will seriously roll my eyeballs out of my sockets and stuff it up their asses. It's like, shuddup already if you have no good reason for me. I think i'll never know the reason, because i cannot imagine or accept what good enough a reason can there be for my mom to be taken away at such a young age. My dad has also lost his companion, and again, what has he done to have deserve this? As grumpy as he can be, he's also a good person at heart.

If God sacrificed his son to die for man's sins, then why create diseases to make man suffer? This may sound rather blasphemous, but its like karma. His son suffered and died for us, so now it's our turn to suffer and die. Like seriously, i think only 1% of the population dies a natural death. Majority is either dying from either diseases or unfortunate accidents with unfinished businesses.

Maybe the world should just end in 2012, then we can all stop questioning the meaning of life and why things happen the way they do. The rich becomes richer and greedier, the poor becomes poorer and demoralized. I don't see how this increasing disparity is going to make the world a better place to live in.

Heal the world and We are the world? oh please.