Farewell 2010, HELLO 2011 :)

So 2010 has finally come and gone. For those who have been through the year with me, you would have known it wasn't exactly the best year for me. Eventful, yes, but not exactly very memorable, to the point of being painful, for at least 1/2 of the year. I never knew how important relationships/friendships are, and how much they could affect me (you have no idea). And yes, I also learnt the importance of being decisive, and to stick to my decisions no matter what and never waver.

And now for the cliches, but I mean every word of it:

I am truly thankful for the wonderful friends that I have, the ones who have stuck by me, you know who you are :) I know for the very fact that I haven't handled situations very well, hurting many people in the process, and there is absolutely no excuses for myself. For the people who have judged me, said things behind my back, called me names etcetc. I don't blame you, but I guess it also explains why we aren't the best of friends in the first place. I'm sure it's neither of our losses. Yet I don't blame these people because I feel it's arguably human nature. Even I would have judged myself for some of the things I've done. But for the ones who never judged, always listen, ever ready for a shoulder to cry on and to guide me along patiently (fiercely at times for I can be such an airhead), I HEART YOU ALL VERY MUCH :) I still am not the nicest person around, but you know I would do anything for you if needed. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being there.

However, as always, every cloud has its silver lining and after 1 year + of emotional roller coasters, I am glad to say my life is finally falling back into place again. It's not all that bad now when I look at it retrospectively because through these all, I learnt who are the people who matters most to me and also from my own mistakes. Most importantly, as I learn to forgive myself, I too learn to forgive others, grow as a person and to look at perspectives less superficially and more spiritually (still learning though).

And finally, you lose some, you also win some. For when one door closes, another opens. I may have lost some friends (or so I thought were friends), lost some dignity, lost myself in the midst of everything, but above all, I also gain invaluable lessons, precious friends and the one person who loves me despite everything. Never giving up on me, persevering through ordeals and not once did he walk out of my life, praying for me everyday despite misgivings that occurred between us during the downs. And it was through him I grew spiritually and let God back into my life, for he always reminds me that however helpless situations may seemed to the point of no return and we feel like giving up, we must always trust, and keep the faith that the greater being above us will never give up on us, for Matthew 6:34 tells us do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Thus I shall end off with Proverbs 3:5-6:

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

A very good guidance and reminder for 2011 indeed, for a new journey lies ahead of us :) 
 

"Definition of Bill by Billster Dictionary:
* always with you for the rest of your life ,

Explanation:
   Yeah you do know that u need to pay bills for the rest of your life right so I will therefore always be by your side. Wahaha. Sorry, pardon the corniness hurr : )"  

Thank you for the being in my life :)